Hello fellows. This post is not funny, insulting, witty or even amusing in any sense of the word. So unless you know me personally, there is no point in reading this post.
Seriously, I am not kidding. Move along!!
I have been thinking about writing this post for a long now.
For those who have stuck around, this is not your typical end of the year blog post. It is an epilogue for this blog. I had fun, hope you did too.
This year will always be special. This year I had some amazing experiences: kicking iron post instead of football, having my tooth removed under anaesthesia that didn't work well, getting special treatment from lecturers, forgetting how to concentrate, following lost luggage into another town and stuff like that.
But it was the year when my life took a new turn and I began growing out of my shell; I gained confidence like I never thought I could, found courage I never knew I had, made new friends, met wonderful people, and realized life is much more than novels and movies. It is only when you open yourself to new things that you began to discover yourself, and in that discovery lies the truth of your existence. I cannot say that I have found myself, but I am closer than ever before, and there is no doubt about that.
The whole essence of this year could be put into one world: experiment. And it all started with a road trip back home.
It was January and I was returning from Chandigarh after publicity for INCOGNITO2010, my friends dropping me off at Ludhiana on their way back to jalandhar. We were four guys and one girl in the car, gossiping about nothing in particular. Now one thing you would have noticed with me sitting in there is that I don't gossip. Trust me, I don't mean to show the national time-pass of our country any disrespect, but I used to find it boring and pointless. I had my small circle of friends and we used to discuss everything on earth but other people's life. That was me back then, calm, reticent and inconspicuous, living my quiet life and letting other live theirs.
Anyway, the topics of the discussion kept changing and suddenly we were talking about the "hottest gals in college". Surprisingly for me, it was the liveliest of all topics, and each guy mentioned at least 3 gals on whom everyone else had something to add. Everyone but me, that is. I just sat there, listening to it all, trying and failing to keep track of the names. And at that moment I realized I was missing something; I didn't know if it was important or not, but I knew there was only one way to find out. After leaving the car, I walked the long way home, thinking how I feel about this, and reached to the conclusion that I have no way of knowing how it feels to know and be known by people. And I thought it’s something worth trying. Hence the experiment.
Fast forward to December. I was a part of the incognito team and class representative for the placement cell. I knew what was going on in the campus and for most part was involved in it. This blog was appreciated. And thanks to my new haircut, the number of friends on facebook increased from 70 to 250. I was living a life entirely different from what I was used to and it was a strange feeling. The fact that I was involved with more people gave me confidence in a way I could never have imagined. But inspite of all this, something was amiss. I had started living for people and reached a state of mind where opinions of others mattered to me more than my own. And it was when I was called a hypocrite that I realized I could no longer live like this. But I had a responsibility I had to fulfil. As student convener it was my duty to see that things to smoothly. The realization that for many of us our egos mattered more than the success of the event, and the fact that I was hated because I wanted to involve more people in the process of making decisions and make individuals accountable for their action did come as a shock. Some people just hated transparency, and I am ignorant to the art of deception. So I decided to leave INCOGNITO think-tank couple of weeks ago on moral grounds. The people I left behind are more than capable of organizing the fest I wish them luck, because we all know they are gonna need it.
After a due course of time, everything comes to an end. For me, it was a wonderful year, and an amazing experience. But unfortunately, it’s time to end it.
Thank you people for bearing with me. Especially Anurag for getting me a domain and Simar for accompanying me in my sinister scheme of making helpless people follow it. Thank you Sahil and Mishal for encouraging me and the cute cse gal for giving me thumbs up on publishing one of the post involving her. In fact, I would like to thank whole civil department; it was because of you that I avoided classed and ended up doing all those crazy things.
Thank you everyone. God bless.
It’s the incognito insider signing off for the last time.
Good bye, Good luck.
